040210 : the final goodbye.

I am going to move on, and hearing that from me I think is a very good thing.
It's an improvement, a change, a period of growth.
I'm scared like hell to take that step. But I will not be afraid anymore.

Youre happy, and you've moved on. I told myself that I'd wait till that happened before I did. I've been putting this off for way too long.

Goodbye to you John Mari Magpantay Pecson.
You will always be special and you will always be loved.

bighug-

<3

That’s why love is madness. It’s too easy to lose your mind when you lose your heart.

- pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

I am officially losing my mind. =/

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It still echoes in my soul
Please forgive me , if I didn't say
I love you every single day

- Live Twice by Darius

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be

- There you'll be by Faith Hill

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

- In another Life by The Veronicas

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go


- Wherever you will go by The Calling

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,


- Breathe by Taylor Swift

I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time I had you with me
Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made


And how we laughed and how we smiled
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ran so fast, we ran so free
I had you and you had me

- Please remember - LeAnn Rimes


Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain

Set me free, leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
Just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me

Oh, you loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground
But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know is that
You're keeping me down
Oooh

- Gravity By Sarah Bareilles

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.

- I can't hate you anymore by Nick Lachey

We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us

And now our loves floating out the window
Our loves floating out the back door
Our loves floating up in the sky
In heaven where it began
Back in god’s hands

- In God's Hands by Nelly furtado

I would give everything I own,
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home.
And I would give everything I own,
Just to have you back again.

- Everything I Own by Nsync

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you

So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you

- From where you are by lifehouse


And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

- You and me by lifehouse

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (plans we made)
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know (no no)
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away (oh oh), but they can never have yesterday


- Yesterday by Leona Lewis

But I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away, but they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open and I Keep bleeding

- Bleeding love by Leona Lewis

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too (oh yeah)
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to (ooh ooh)
It'll all get better in time

- Better in time by Leona Lewis

Where do i go
What do i do
I can't deny i still feel something
And girl, i wish you could say you feel the same
You've broken the bond
I gotta move on
But how do i end this lonely feeling?
You've gone, I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow


- Time to grow by Lemar

What if i took my time to love you ?
What if i put no-one above you ?
what if i did the things that really mattered ?
What if i ran through hopes of disaster ?

No-one would care if we had never made it
We're in this alone so why dont we face it
There is no room to blame one another
We just need time to forgive each other


What about love...
What about feeling...
What about all the things that make life worth living
What about faith
What about trust
And tell me baby what about us

How can I give this love a new beginning ?
How can I stop the rain its never ending ?
How do i keep my soul reliving ?
Memories of how we should be keep calling

Oh baby
I'll take the rivers right
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

- What about love by Lemar

I never thought I'd see,
a single day without you,
The things we take for granted we can sometimes lose.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again,

- Will you wait for me by Kavana

How do I get better
Once I've had the best

Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

- Thinking of you by Katy Perry

I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me
(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was
(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

- Everywhere I Go by Katherine Mcphee


No one else comes close to you
No one makes me feel the way you do

- No one else comes close by Joe

I shouldn't love you
But I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
But I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop
Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

- Just so you know by Jesse McCartney

And now I'll take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

- Take my heart back by Jennifer Love Hewit

if i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that I could call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow,  boy this much i know is true
i found my piece of heaven the day that i found you


- If i never get to heaven by Javier

Cause I still love you
This I must confess
I guess I still need you
I feel I have to tell you this again
Yes I still want you
Oh these words I did not plan
So if I've interupted anything
I promise I won't call you again

- Still by Frankie J

I wish I could be everylittle thing you wanted, all the time
Oh, I wish I could be everylittle thing you wanted, all the time, sometimes

- Every little thing you wanted by Dishwalla

The pain I endure
You're my cure
But my mistakes have led me
Far away from you

You turn away
From all those things that I've been trying to say
And all those promises I shouldn't have made
I did it for you

- I did it for you by David cook

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

- In this life by Colin Raye

I know it's hard to believe
You're still the biggest part of me
All I'm living for

I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you, and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You're still the one
You're still the one

- Still by Brian Mcknight

The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

And though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are...

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, every day
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

- Never gone by Backstreet Boys

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

- I still by Backstreet Boys

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Baka ikaw rin at ako
Baka tibok ng puso ko'y
Maging tibok ng puso mo

Sana nga'y mangyari 'yon
Kahit di pa lang ngayon
Sana ay mahalin mo rin
Pagdating ng panahon 

- Pagdating ng panahon by Aiza Seguerra



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I can't believe I took an hour or so just doing all of these.
I'm supposed to be the one that's moving on just fine.
I'm supposed to be happy for you.
I'm Supposed to be okay seeing you with someone else.
but all of which are not happening.

I'm not supposed to be thinking of you,
I'm not supposed to love you.
But I am and i still do.

why babe, why?
):

i love you.
i know i may not have been showing it.
but i love you. and i cant deny that.
but baby.. hear me out when i say that..
im sorry ive been like this..
im sorry i cant give you the happiness you deserve now.
im sorry i havent beem exactly the person you would want me to be.
im sorry that i havent been there. im sorry that i told ppl about what happened btwn us before and didnt tell you that they knew.
im sorry for all those times i fought back.
im sorry for all those times that i hurt you, and i was the reason why you were always at the lowest point of your life.
im sorry for those times when i failed to understand.
im sorry for those times when i put my feelings before yours.
im sorry i havent loved you that way i could.. or like before..
and most of all.
im sorry that i dissapointed you.

there are meant to be more ' im sorrys'. but at this rate im going, i wont stop alrdy.

but you know..I wish i can find the courage to tell you all of this. i wish i can just pretend that everything is okay. i wish that this feeling would just go away. but i cant baby.
as much as i want to..
i just cant..

): im sorry. i never meant to hurt you in any way.
you dont deserve this baby.
i dont deserve you.
here you are opening your heart to me, and here i am with my door stuck.

.....

i cant even find the words to express what im really feeling. but i know, its nth compared to the hurt youre feeling now. and yet again, because of me.

it's always me isnt it?
why cant i just keep you happy always.
i really want to baby.. i really really want to. )):


be strong over there love. be strong with me. let's just let time be the ans.
time is all we need.









rmb this. i love you bie. i really do. even though you said i never did.
i always had, and i still do.

today during cat. class.
we had pnw as per normal, but there was this one point of time when i got hit really badly cause we were meant to repeat this, "Count your blessings, not your misfortunes"
and all i could think of was you baby.. that was the mistake that i guess we both just keep making huh? we keep taking note of whatever the other has done wrong instead of what good was done. but no baby, it's all gonna change now. somehow, or at least i hope. i wanna take that step from the past now huney. i wanna let go. and just focus on now, focus on how we can be happy each time when we are together and also when we're without the other. Instead of using the past against each other. so huney. we can do this!


AND! im proud to say that we have made it thru this weekend. and mind you huney, we havent fought at all. and im really glad.
=D
so i'd just like to dedicate this song to you love. it may be a simple song, but i couldnt stop smiling or just let the flow of happiness spread throughout my body when i heard it. And while i was listening to it, i just thought of us. All our happy moments passed by my mind, and goodness honey, THERE IS ALOT. more than all the bad ones. I'm sorry if i have taken it for granted before, but admit it, we both did in our little ways. Taken for granted was the love we used to have cause our hearts were driven by hurt. but like i said huney. it's gone now. im proud of you. of me. of us. ( i like how that sounds.. we.. us.. hehhh.)

anyhhhoooo. here is the lyrics to the song. i hope you enjoy it as much as i did relieving all the memories that we made. :-*

i love you so very much. a few more hours till i see you
14 hours and 40 minutes to go! (I THINK)

xoxo

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EDWIN McCAIN- I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE.

Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face,
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are is everything to me,
These are the moments I know Heaven must exist,
These are the moments I know all I need is this,
I've found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true,
Yeah, right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, here with me. . . Yeah.

These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .

Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true,
And right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, here with me. . .

I could not ask for more than this love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.

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'Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast , it is not proud. It is not rude , it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered , it keeps no record of wrongs . Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects , always trusts , always hopes, always perseveres . Love never fails. '
- 1 CORINTHIANS 13: 4-8

p.s I LOVE YOU BABY BOO.

BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY.
How i wish that i met you just now, cause i miss you so bad. ):
buttttt ( HAHAHAHA) no.. we have to get used to this someone. the distance at least, so it wouldnt be so hard during the next few months. how i wish we could just be so open about our relationship like before.. but i guess the circumstances really just doesnt allow that huh? but still, we will pull through this. we always do.

i hope you're still not worried about what might happen in Sentosa, cause i promise that nothing will. because i wouldnt want anything to happen either. and even if i did, i only want things to happen with you.

i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.
i can't wait for monday. ( i just told you that u could send me home if you liked. hehhhh) and you said, ' im more than willing'
you made me melt. that's the effect you have on me, you just make me so happy even if its just something small. ( you just told me you loved me. and that you really really really do)
seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. just like that and im already feeling much better.
every little thing that you do, be it big or small, i fall in love with you even more.
i love you more each time i think about you.
i love you more each second.
i love you more each time you smile.
i love you more. ( YAAAAAAAAAA in every single possible way)

sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.

you know, your voice sounds so sweet on the phone. the only reason why i
keep quiet so much is cause i'm imagining what you're doing now. like what you're wearing. what's your sitting position like. how you look. etc etc.
AND MY GOODNESS. you look super handsome. like really really really to the max.
meltsssssssssssss~

i love you dear. i really do.
that's all for now kayyy?
((:
so smile na, and don't worry too much love.
oh btw, the link to our old blog. (CLICK HERE!)
(p.s you just put down the phone)













random:
i wanna watch the sunset with you one day.
i wanna spend a night under the stars with you.

i love you!
xoxo

you know, i suddenly just miss you.
it's only been a few hours from the last i saw you.
but still with every passing minute, i'm just missing you more.
i cant wait to see you on monday.

i'll be counting down the hours till i do.

love you so much.
xoxo

John Mari Magpantay Pecson.
i love you.
i love you.
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i love you.
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i love you.
thank you for today my dear.
you have made me so happy, happier beyond my expectations.
that's what you do huney, you are just.. so.. wonderful to be around.
there's just this aura around you that i just get so drawn to. and that's why im pretty much stuck here cause im far in. But i don't mind one bit.
Never will i regret the past hun, all of the 3 years that ive known you.
All the days that we spent together, would never be replaced or forgotten cos they are just too splendid to forget.
Even though we've had a rocky relationship at first, always like an emotional roller coaster, with the constant up and down motion. but it never stopped us.
It made us stronger, it made us grow together.
And from two individuals, we are finally one.

I wanna spend the rest of my life with you. I want you to be the first thing i see each day, the voice i'd wake up to. I want you to be my Husband, my best friend , my lover and of course my one and only baby. The person who'd be the father to my kids ( and mind youuuuuuuuu, i want lots and lots and lots! *winks ) The man i'd grow old with. BABY IT'S YOU.

i hope you know how much i love you.. honestly im unsure whether ive done enough.. but i assure you, im doing whatever i can. i want to be the best for you. I want to give you the happiness you deserve. Cause my love, you deserve all the happiness in the world. and i'll do whatever i can. for you baby, i'll do anything.

i hope this made you smile. (: i didn't know how to cheer you up you see. but i hope this helps.

I LOVE YOU HUNEY.
xoxo

Kathleen ELizabeth Deanne.

psalm 27:4

let my heartbeat be my heart's cry let me live to serve your call
in my life, Your will be done


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